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Mar. 1st, 2009

In my place

A week. It's been a whole week since I asked Karina to be my girlfriend. Man, if you would have told me 2 years ago that the short short girl walking around MHS would one day be mine, I would have laughed. Now it's a week later and I've been pretty happy. It feels like that little gap I was missing in my life is filled. Everytime we kiss I get a rush of feelings go through me. I'm happy yet nervous, excited yet hesitant. Other than Ashley I haven't had a girlfriend were we just hung out together. And even with Ashley it was more of group dates. But with Karina it's completley different. We just...hang out. And I love it. She just seems really down to earth. She did a whole 360 turn around from the first couple of times we hung out though. I used to think she was so sweet and innocent, but little did I know she's a little crazy lol. But I like it. She's not boring at all. All my girlfriends I've had to be the one that's always trying, but with Karina it's as if I can talk and do things, but at any given point she can take over and just talk and do things. She's so different from any girl I've liked.

Feb. 23rd, 2009

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She's mine ^_^!!!

Feb. 21st, 2009

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What the hell is wrong with me :[

Feb. 18th, 2009

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Call me crazy about her or just call me crazy, but I miss this feeling :]

Feb. 16th, 2009


I kissed her...or did she kiss me? I'm not sure. I don't really know what happened at that moment. I want to kiss her...I've wanted to for a long while now. Its a weird feeling. I mean I've kissed girls before but not like this. This felt different. I haven't stopped thinking about her since last night. I wish we could have layed there longer. She's an amazing girl, she really is. With every kiss I felt closer to her. I mean I had no idea what I was doing but it felt right, well...kissing her. I really think she might be the girl I've been waiting for. Or is she? I don't know everything can get confusin. I hope so. I want to give us a shot but does she? Or is she not ready? Am I ready? I wanted to ask last night but I hesitated. I should have...I need to see her once more. I feel comfortable with her now, really comfortable. I like her, a lot. Today has been such a weird day. All I think about is her. Ugh. I haven't felt like this about a girl in years. I like it, yet its weird. Let's just see what happens. I hope this ends up good.

Aug. 7th, 2008

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Maybe I'll start to get things back on track
Or maybe I never had things on track.
I need a break from everything.

Jul. 26th, 2008

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I never really payed attention when everyone told me to take advantage of my high school years. They always said they would be the best years of my life. It's been a year since I graduated and I now see what they meant. Now that I move closer to adulthood, it seems my teenage years get more blurry and I can't seem to remember half the things I did. I mean, I can only recall a handful of things that are memorable, and they aren't that special at all. I should have taken advantage. I should have known to listen to people that have gone through what I was going through. But hey, that's part of being a teen. You're ignorant. Now, it seems as if everyday there's a new decision to be made. Decisions that impact your life. I need to get my drivers license. I need to finish up my general education classes; I need to figure out my major and what university I actually want to go to. I need to get a job and I need to do community service hours. I just feel so overwhelmed with things to do that I just don't know were to start. Its as if once you're out of high school, you're bombarded with things you need to do. Life after high school is so different. For 13 years you have your hand held by someone and told what to do. You're shown what you have to do and how to do it. But now, getting a small taste of the real world, everything sucks. You're lucky if someone comes out of their way to help you out. And to think that I'll be moving out in a couple of years? But I guess things have to change. Sooner or later, we'll all be out on our own trying to make something of ourselves. My time is coming and so will yours. I just want to be a kid again. I want to go back in time and tell a 13 year old me to take full advantage of his life. I want more memories. I want deeper friendships. I want to look back on my life and smile out of satisfaction and not feel an empty.

Things are back to normal...or at least they're getting much better. We're talking more and more. I mean, I'm trying to talk to her more. There was a period were we hardly spoke at all. I wasn't prepared for that one. I got so accustomed to her every night. Sometimes I think I can talk to her for days on end and not get bored. Maybe that's a sign. For now I'm certain that crush is still there. It got me a bit bummed when we had our...first serious talk the other night. It seemed as if things weren't going to go back to the way they were. I admit, it got me really sad, and a lot of things don't get me that down. But somehow things worked out. Maybe in the future...maybe.

But at least for now that's all I have to say. I can't really organize my thoughts straight at the moment. It feels like random thoughts are jumping in my head faster than my hands could type. I'll probably update this soon, but knowing me I wont, so don't keep your hopes up.

Mar. 26th, 2008

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Mar. 5th, 2008

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My second time seeing Fair to Midland.
Oh my god I went buck.
Zed, Sway, and I where the ones going the craziest along with some Asian kid.
I have never r0ked out harder than last night.
I danced way too hard with the manatee :'(

Firme to Firme :'(

Feb. 14th, 2008

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So it looks like I got my first Valentine. I've never really had a Valentine before. I've usually asked a girl to be my girlfriend on that day, but we didn't hang out, so you can say it was pretty lame. I asked Karina to be my Valentine last weekend...or...last week? Well all that matters is that I asked her :). I had been meaning to for a while now. I always wanted to know how it was to have a Valentine, and that was my chance. I went to school today, and I was planning on going to the mall directly after school, since I get out at 11. I made my way straight to the Hello Kitty store, only to find out that it was closed down. Man I was shocked. My one hope of finding a nice gift was gone. I had an hour before I had to leave if I wanted to show up at the high school in time. I gave up on looking for the store, just in case they re-located it and went inside the Hallmark store. Boy, was that store packed. So I decided to get her a card and a rose. As I was leaving, it was as if God had slapped me across the left side of my face and made me turn and there it was, through the glass, Hello Kitty in the flesh...well not in the flesh but you know what I mean. I quickly ran inside the store and bought the first doll I found, which was also the only one there lol. Skip an hour later and I'm at MHS. I gave Karina the things I bought her. I was pretty nervous. My stomach was tossing and turning. Not only was I scared of giving her the things, I had never really hung out with her alone. And here I was, giving her a rose, thinking of what there is to do. I wasn't sure if she would find me entertaining, or if she would find me boring. I was thinking of what I would say to her all day, but when it came down to it, I forgot all of it. Surprisingly, I wasn't nervous. She's too cool to feel uncomfortable around. I had fun today. We went to Denny's and ate, then I walked her to her Aunts house. Man my legs where killing me, but it was worth it :). She gave me a big frog with a tutu and the diary she was writing while she was in Mexico for me. I would have given the one I was writing, but I'm not done with it. I love the Frog. Ever since my sister took my other pillow, I haven't slept well, just because I love hugging something while sleeping and now, I have my Frog :D. Hopefully she had fun, I know I did. I've never really spent money on a girl...or at least I can't remember a time when I did. So yeah, that was my Valentines Day, with my first Valentine ^.^

School is pretty chill. I love it. This semester I got classes I really like. Music Theory and Astronomy are by far the best classes I have ever taken. Life is really looking up, not that it hasn't been, but lately I've been living in euphoria. I got good grades last semester, I got my first Valentine, school is perfect, and my birthday is in 2 months...even though I doubt anything interesting will happen. I'll just end this with a happy note and say... xD.

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